You seem to be going through a lot of internal adjustments in preparation for a big shift. You want to be strong. But inside, there is conflict and uncertainty. As soon as one adjustment is made, it seems it is unmade and a new one undertaken. You try to adopt a strong attitude to convince yourself of confidence. But instead, you may feel somewhat vulnerable. You are not getting what you need. So, you scramble for a solution. But the more you seek, the further lost you become. Why hide from a seeming vulnerability when instead exploring the perceptions which trigger it may bring a greater sense of clarity?