It makes good and practical sense for you to take the steps that you are now considering. As a matter of fact, it seems like the best option you have! But, part of the reason that you have arrived at this juncture was because of a deep desire. Unless you bring it to the forefront of attention and strive to refrain from the actions you are considering, then problems will soon ensue. This will start with pride. It will end with humility, which is not such a bad thing if you make a point of truly taking a look!
Tithi: Shukla Dasami