What are you hoping to spark into being today? What do you lack? Is the state of lack that you feel great enough to cause you to do something rash? You want things to change for the better, obviously! But you have less control over the situation than you surmise. And trying to pretend that you do will only eventually make you certain that you don’t. Something which you are trying to create is likely to happen of its own accord. Cooperate with its creation, but don’t get in the way by trying to direct it!