It’s not your fault that you are uncertain of what to do! You certainly have a lot of enthusiasm with which to try. And that certainly has to count for something. And it will! That is as long as you are not attached to controlling the flow of where things are going. If you are ready to give things your all, and even more so ready to listen and to learn, then you stand the chance to accomplish much. An eye-opening experience need not be jarring if you are ready and willing to have them opened.